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Thursday, November 6, 2008;

♥ 8:50 PM

Hope is a thing with wings, is it not?
I recently came across this phrase whilst reading a fanfic, and how true it is. Hope. With wings like a chicken, I'd reckon. Lousy, powerless wings that keep trying to fly. But everytime it lifts off the ground, even by just an inch, everything just comes crashing back down to the ground.

Holidays have always been a frustrating thing, to me at least. It's always been so hard, so full of empty promises. I don't get why going on a freaking holiday is just so damn hard. Okay, I take that back. Maybe I do get why, the stupid darn reasons and all. It's always this or that, I don't know why I even bother. I really don't know what I should be feeling; tired, upset, angry, frustrated? I shouldn't be, I know. It's no one's fault. Then again, it never is anyone's.

Yeah, you all probably would have guessed already. Taiwan trip has been cancelled. Like wth. Don't ask me why, I'm so tired of all this shit. Forget it, I'll just stay in Singapore. If we're not going anywhere, it's probably better any way, in every sense of it. Save me from missing 3 trainings too.

Felt like some kind of cold joke my dad was trying to crack, but perphaps I wasn't too surprised. It came out of the blue, but these things always happen, don't they?

My parents say they're trying to plan for another one. Sure, okay. Whatever. I'm going to stop putting my hope in this, because there'd be no point in getting excited about something that may not even be confirmed.

Forget it, really. There are so many complications to going on a damned holiday. I might be a blur queen and all, but I still do see these things. And it sucks that I should be troubled over them.

You know what, I shan't bother about this for now. For now. I'm going to hopefully watch the last episode of Heroes season 2 before season 3 starts later tonight at 10pm. I have another dilemna to be troubled about, but enough is enough for one night. I'll worry about it tmr. Bleagh.

Sorry for the sort of emo post. Just needed to rant. I'm normally not such an emo queen. Lol, the irony.

How many kinds of queen can I be at a time, I wonder?

Signing off,
`QUEEN.